I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
I am so sorry for your loss, Nagi. I pray that God holds you close to comfort you and give you peace… and that, with time, your tears of sadness can be eclipsed by sweet memories of your beloved Dozer.
Nagi, My heart breaks for you. I know it is devastating to love someone who loved you unconditionally. You two were perfect for each other, what a wonderful life he gave to you. 💔💓
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Nagi, I’m very sorry for you loss. Thank you so much for sharing your journey, your many joys and now sorrow. The amazing Dozer will live 0n our hearts, too. What an extraordinary best friend to you! ❤️
I’m very sorry for your loss Nagi, I do love Dozer too and I feel same loss thank you for sharing with us, Dozer may now not on pain anymore, goodbye, big hugs for Nagi .
Nagi
I’m so sorry to hear your beloved Dozer has passed. I know the pain is unbearable. The price we pay for loving our furbabies.
” to love and lose is better than to never have loved atall”
Those days after the loss are endless, filled with pain, sadness, and endless tears. I know that pain, having lost 2 beloved pets. My 1st after an amazing fulfilled 18.5 years, and my 2nd , 3 years ago , after 16.75 years of joy. The pain of both losses still lives with me. However, following advice from our amazing Vet, we now have our adorable Mal-Shi, Lexi. She fill the house with joy and fun, and helps to ease the pain of missing our 2 precious furbabies.
In time, and it takes time, you will come to terms with your loss, and you will smile again. Until that time comes take care of yourself, keep busy, but take time to grieve.
“Dogs leave pawprints on our hearts”
Anne & Lexi
So sorry for your loss. Praying for your strength during this period of transition.
My heart breaks for you. You and Dozer spread love all over the world and because of that, everyone felt like they knew and loved you and Dozer. I firmly believe every living creature has a soul and because of that, he will be waiting for you in heaven. You will see him again.
I’m so, so sorry and my heart hurts for you right now. Thank you for sharing all the stories and pictures of Dozer over the years. You gave him a wonderful life! Big Hugs from Canada. <3
I am so sorry about dozer. He was adorable and you never let him down with all your heart
Take care, Nagi. Thinking of you. Very sad to hear.
I am so incredibly sad about Dozer. He gave you so much love and joy but please remember how much you gave him over his 14 years with you. He couldn’t have found more happiness than he had with you. I know you’re hurting and I am so sorry; you give so much to so many people with your talent and commitment and warmth that I wish I could take your pain away. He was an exceptional dog and he shared his life with an exceptional and loving mother.
I am so sorry, Nagi–a beautiful story of unconditional love and dedication–thank you for sharing the journey ❤️
Nagi, My heart breaks for you.I went through the same thing last month. Time really does heal. You were such a wonderful mom to Dozer. He brought so much joy and happiness to so many. thank you Dozer, rest in peace sweetie pie xoxoxox
Nagi, I know and understand you lost our Duke, who left us 15 years ago, and we still have the most wonderful memories, still speak of him, and smile or laugh as the case may be.
So sorry. Sending very best wishes.
Nagy, I only started using your recipes about 3 years ago, which was about a year after our dearest Bentley went to sleep and to the rainbow bridge. The hurt is real. For us, parents of an almost 17 year old dog, who had been with us almost as long as we’d been together, it hit really hard. Every time we look at his pictures we laugh and cry. Good tears. Sorry for your loss. Dozer would want you to smile when thinking of him.
Dear Nagi, so sorry for your loss. Dozer brought me happiness when seeing him in your posts. May you find peace knowing the extreme love you had for him.
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I am sorry for your loss. Rest in Peace Dozer.