I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
No amount of condolences will make a difference. He’s gone. Your boy. Hugs. He was loved. You were loved. You are loved. yoshimi
Aww ive tears reading this. Soo sorry for such a sad loss. I feel your pain as this week we are going to have to put to sleep our beautiful staffy we have only had him for 5 years but he is riddled with cancer tumours that can not be removed. My daughter got him when she was going through her first breakup at 19year old.The pain for her & us is unbearable. We have payed soo much money to try and save him but we can not have him in pain anymore. Big hugs nagi & dozer will always be around you 💞
I lost my dogs a year ago. My heart is still broken. I don’t cry like I used to. It does get better. So hard to say goodbye to true love. You’re in my prayers tonight.
I know that pain, huge hugs my friend
I am so sorry for your loss Nagi. Sending my love and hugs to you.💔🥲❤️
My heart breaks for you. How lucky you both were to have had each other🐾🤗🐾
My heart goes out to you and as a healer and spiritualist he was so grateful to you and the life you gave him and being there when he crossed the rainbow bridge. Much love and healing to you. You both touch many hearts. Caroline xx
Dearest Nagi, I’m so very sad for the loss of your beautiful Dozer 💔 We all fell in love with him. Im so glad you made him a huge part of your Recipe Tin Eats life and so we were all included in his life and sadly now in his crossing to the other side. Much love and light to you 💕
So sorry for your loss I know one day I will lose wags the groodle and it will be tough
I feel for you, our puppies are so loyal and bring so many feelings of joy through their to short lives.
goodbye is never easy, but Dozer love will forever be with you. You remember his love for you, and he will rest in peace in doggie heaven.
our dogs love us unconditionally, we are their whole world, and what we get back is 100 times what we give them. Dozer was so fortunate to have you with him in his last days/hours and I am sure he went in peace, knowing he was safe and loved so much. He will be waiting when its your turn – as I know all my pets will be waiting too. Big Hugs Nagi xxx
How truly wonderful to love and be loved by your dear Dozier. As a pet parent, having had to say goodbye to so many fur babies, I feel your loss. But how truly we are blessed to have shared our lives together with them.
Unfortunately, that’s life. They can’t stay with us forever. He was very lucky to have you as his mom. Big hugs.
So sorry for your loss :-(. It is the saddest thing in the world to lose a special pet who will always be part of the family. Stay strong Nagi. Thinking of you and will include Dozer in my daily prayer/chanting.
So sorry for your loss, I understand the pain and heartache you are going through having gone through it myself.
It will pass in time and you will love a furry little bundle of joy again ❤️
My heart breaks for you Nagi. You were both so very lucky to have each other in your lives. Dozer, you were such a beautiful boy with so so much personality. Nagi, thank you for sharing Dozer with us, he put a smile on my face every day xx🐾❤️
I can feel the grief and love in this post, Nagi. I hope it brings you some comfort knowing he passed in his best friend’s arms, with minimal pain, the kind of peaceful ending we all wish for those we love, human and animal alike. Your pain right now is the price of admission for such a deep love; how wonderful that the two of you got to experience it.
Sending love and strength to you.
– Liv ❤️🌹
Dear Nagi. My heart is breaking for you over losing your beautiful fur baby Dozer. I cried when I found out. He was a gorgeous, entertaing & decerning food taster. Your heart will heal, but always ache. Sending you hugs & love. Hugs & love for Dozer
I’m sending you a big hug Nagi. I feel your grief but though you can’t believe it right now, believe me, the memories and photos will never fade, but the pain will heal, just give yourself some time x
Dear Nagi, I am a follower of yours (and Dozer’s) for a long time; I have had dogs in my life always, and actually I have one, called Bianca, for this I know what you are feeling,
Just wanted to tell you that Dozer will always be there, with you, because you carry him in your heart.
Javier from Madrid.