I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Hi Nagi,
So very sorry for your loss. My eyes were teary reading your post and even now whilst writing this. I can relate to what you went through. We too lost our Golden Retriever back in 2009. She was 14 going on 15 years. I still feel sad when i think of her. Dozer is gone but he will remain forever in your heart and those who were lucky enough to get to know him. Rest in peace, Dozer!
Thinking of you, Nagi and sending love & hugs as you farewell your beautiful Dozer xx 🌈 💛🦴
My heart goes out to you Nagi. He was an absolute adoring loyal best mate for you. Blessings
❤️❤️❤️
Hello Nagi,
Feeling so sad for you. Dozer is running free now.
Best wishes
Meg 💜🌈🐝
My heart aches for you Nagi. Such a beautiful boy who gave so much to all who knew him. Sending you prayers of comfort and healing. Grief is a journey that requires courage and good friends!! Love and hugs Janet
So sad having to say goodbye Nagi, it feels like Dozer was a friend of us all
We feel your pain Nagi.
You can hold your head up high that you did your absolute best for beautiful Dozer.⭐️
Golden retrievers are very special dogs. We lost ours several years ago but my heart still jumps whenever I see one!
Sending hugs and prayers.
Dear Nagi,
So Sorry Nagi – Biggest HUGS
XXX
May you gain some comfort knowing you gave Dozer, The BEST LIFE anyone could have.
Take Care of yourself Nagi, and know everyone is thinking of you xxx
Condolences Nagi. Dogs are true gifts, they reminds that love is love and life is to be celebrated. They ease our pain, they bring us joy, laughter and are faithful companions through thick and thin. They don’t judge. And while I know your heart is breaking…don’t leave it too long before you consider another dog to share your love. After our Mac passed on my wife couldn’t think of replacing him…since then we’ve learned that he couldn’t be replaced but we could love another dog and give them a good life. Because we are older, we now re-home older dogs and even though we know our time with them will be short it’s a lovely thing to give them happy senior years. Big hugs to you Nagi…dog people are the best.
Dearest Nagi,
Your grief over losing your best mate is immense and, although you will move on, you will never lose the love you had for Dozer.
When the worst of the pain eases slightly you will realise that you gave him the wonderful life (as he did you) and you have the dearest of memories to look back on.
Sending you all my love and thinking of you. Sue
After losing 3 elderly dogs, one who visited Sash for medical treatment as well, my 💔 breaks for both of you.
I am so sorry for your loss but pleased Dozer is no longer suffering and is now at peace.
I will think of you both when I drive down Blenheim Rd to visit my Mum.
Dozers picture brings me a smile always.
Take care of yourself Nagi, during this time, Dozer would have wanted that
Mx
I am so sad for you losing your beautiful dog. I have been there 3 times. 2 border collies and a maltese x. I know what it is like to cry and cry. But remember 15 years is a good age for Dozers breed. You gave him a very happy life. He was so lucky to have you. Remember the good time you both had. X
Nagi, I’m so sorry to hear that your gorgeous fur baby has passed. As soon as I saw the heading of your post, the tears welled. He had a great life and was much loved. He knew it – you could see it in his eyes in the photos you shared. May he live on forever in your heart.
So sorry for your loss Nagi…he was so adorable and will be sadly missed! ❤️
I don’t think i stopped crying for a good week when my beautiful cat died. It’s so valid, it’s so sad! 😥Sending lots of kisses your way!! Take care of yourself and I hope family and friends are making you lots of yummy comfort food xxx
Oh my gosh
So sorry to hear that Dozer has passed..😞
My ♥️goes out to you… xxx
He certainly was an inspiration for everyone that has read, watched as well as tested your wonderful food ..
RIP Dozer ♥️♥️♥️♥️
As well as many hugs for you Nagi..
Sheree
Oh Nagi – My keyboard is awash with my tears for you and for your best buddy. The joy and love you both oozed over the computer waves washed and moved us like nothing else we have experienced – so just simply – THANK YOU Nagi and Dozer!
You are a darling person with a caring, sensitive & warm spirit. How lucky Dozer was to have been loved so completely & for him to return it emphatically. A true partnership. Memories linger forever.
Maybe one day I’ll too be able to look at photos of your beautiful boy and not sob.
It brings back every painful goodbye I’ve been thru too. I’m so grateful to have that love ❤️
But as you said I wouldn’t trade it for anything, having the love of a faithful friend is worth every tear.
They don’t live as long as we do as they are born with pure hearts, we have many lessons to learn.
How lucky you both were to have the love, devotion and bond you did. Sending you so much love Nagi. Look for the signs, he won’t be far from your side 🩵