I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Dearest Nagi
From one 💔 fur mom to another, sending you <<>>
So sorry for your loss , Dozer was a wonderful dog that I could see gave you all the love and joy in the world , he was your true companion, always there for you at your side 💔💔💔
So sorry Nagi for your loss, I know when we lost our Harley the pain seamed like it would never end, treasure the memories and love you had RIP Dozer.❤️
I am so, so sorry to hear this news. I am praying that Dozer has found his way to the Rainbow Bridge.
I have tears running down my face reading your lovely tributes to your beautiful dog. I am so sorry for your loss.
I’m so sorry Nagi, take time to heal and grieve, it will come in waves, but you will come through. Dozer will be by your side always xxxx
Im so, so sorry about the loss of your beloved Dozer, Nagi.
I really do know how it feels to lose a treasured pet who really is part of the family.
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Dear Nagi. My heart goes out to you. Keep those memories close. Love and hugs xxx
Dear Nagi, I feel so deeply for you, as I had to have my little shadow euthanased a few weeks ago, he was very sick. Even now I can’t forgive myself for ending his life, he was my bestest friend. I still find myself talking to him and, like you, can’t look at his photo without feeling the pain and the tears. It will get easier but just know that there are lots of people out here who really wish you a peace and healing heart.
Thankyou Nagi for all your recipes and posts, we love you.
Elaine
My heartbreaks for you. What a beautiful soul Dozer is. Never forgotten. Always is your heart. ❤️🐾❤️
Sorry for your loss ❤️ the heaven has welcomed a trained pooch who will show off all the culinary skills he learnt from his mom. Hugs. They always remain in our ♥️
I am so, so sorry to hear about Dozer. Sending love and hugs from Canada.
Angie
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Dearest Nagi, I am so, so sad to read about Dozer. The heartbreak would be beyond imaginable. He will always be your boy and what an amazing, wonderful life he had with you. Sending all the hugs to you as you grieve. RIP Dozer 🩷
RIP Dozer Boy. So sad for you Nagi. Your life will be different but he will always be in your heart . 💙
Nothing we say can mend a broken heart but I find remembering and talking about all the great stuff helps. I’m sure Dozer passed with a smile on his face for being so loved. Sending you strength 🙏
Dear Nagi…..hug yourself as if you are hugging him, send your flying kisses to him….the love never ends
and let the tears flow….it will get better
My heart breaks for you Nagi. I pray your pain lessens a little each day. Sending you light and strength.
My heart goes out to you Nagi. Dozer was one lucky dog to be so loved and he loved you in return.
Dogs are heart openers and heart breakers, they also save our lives. Condolences on this monumental loss. XXX
Dear Nagi,
Thank you for sharing Dozer with us. I have looked forward to seeing what he’s up to just as much as your new recipes. My condolences come with a big hug. Thank you for thinking of us all during your deepest, darkest moments of the loss of Dozer so that we can morn with you. My Tully passed away in 2021 and I no longer cry on a daily basis however some photos still bring a tear to my eye. Loosing Dozer is heartbreaking, let your body grieve the loss and remember the good times together. He would have stayed if he could but he had finished what he was here to do in your life. He gave unconditionally and he loved you dearly. May you find peace in the days and weeks ahead. Sending my love. Ruth❤️❤️❤️