I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling. Bless your heart! Rest in Peace to your beautiful Dozer.
Dear Nagy, I am so very sorry for your loss. Dozer will be missed! Rest in peace ❤️
Sending you love, hugs & prayers.
So sad for you Nagi. He truly hasn’t left your side, just his physical body.
Sending love 💕
My heart goes to you . I lost my best friend of 13 years many years ago and still hurts.
Dozer will be in your heart for a life time
R.I.P
So very sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing Dozer’s life adventures with us. Your recipes are delicious but the photos and stories of Dozer were priceless. He will be sadly missed.
How lucky are we to have had something so wonderful and loving, that makes saying goodbye so hard.
Nagi
I dreaded this day for you as i went through a loss of my dog, Nozzle, and it felt like my heart was torn. It is because you loved Dozer wholeheartedly that the pain is so overwheamingly impossible to even describe.
Thank you for sharing Dozer with us. I always read his posts first before the recipe. I will dearly miss him as i felt i was also part if his journey with you. One day you will smile again although it seems impossible at the moment. Hang in there Nagi. We are all here for you x
I’m crying with you Nagi, have loved all the posts and photos of Dozer. Thank you for sharing. Saying goodbye to our beautiful pets is one of the hardest things to do in life. Sending you big hugs and much love 💗
I feel your pain Nagi. Have been through this goodbye before. Now my 18 year old is almost ready to leave us. Heartbreaking. 💔 Dozer has had the best life ever, and if I was a dog I’d choose to belong to you. Strength and love. Betsy
My deepest sympathy on the loss of your best friend and companion. You gave him a great life and to be loved unconditionally from birth to death has to be the greatest blessing.
What an incredible life you gave him!! A dogs life like no other! He could not have had a better parent !
‘Grief is the price we pay for loving’ xxxxx
Nagi, I am so sad for your loss. May your memories comfort you now, and later, may they bring you joy.
I’m so,sorry for your loss Nagi. There really no words… sending you a big hug and much love at this very sad time xx
Dear Nagi, with all the pure joy of loving a pet, comes the almost certain knowledge that we are likely to outlive our pets. I know the hurt and pain feels like it will never be overcome but it will. It just takes time. Thinking of you during this agonising time.
My heart breaks for you. Dogs leave paw prints on our lives forever 🐾 Thinking of you and wishing you peace during this hard time.
What a lucky boy Dozer was to have you. Sending you hugs at this difficult time 💕💕
What a beautiful tribute to dear Dozer — thank you for sharing it, Nagi. You loved him so deeply and gave him such a wonderful life. My heart aches for you and the sadness you’re carrying right now, but I truly hope that, in time, the tears will gently turn into smiles as the happy memories rise to the surface. I promise you, Nagi… that day will come.
So heartbroken for you. Sharing your tears ❤️❤️❤️
RIP Dozer. Know that you were so very much loved and that you leave wonderful memories.
My heart breaks for you as I have been there. Dozer will always be in your thoughts, memories and in your heart. Sending you comfort hugs Nagi xx …RIP dozer. xx
They give us everything everyday, and they see us completely. We are so lucky to share time with them. May your heart and mind begin soon to heal and focus only on the beautiful shared life. The parting is beyond painful, but is of course the price we pay for the gift they give. Dozer gave all of us such delight, and he knew without doubt all the things you wanted to say. Xx
I’m so, so sorry for your loss. Every dog leaves their own mark on your heart, one that makes you smile and makes you cry. Dozer was the bestest boy, and you had a beautiful life together. Thinking of you (in tears myself, remembering my beautiful woofies as well as Dozer) x